I have no idea what I'm doing

Background info, my grandfather had a bit of a health scare at the start of this week. It was the first time my grandmother has been so worried that she asked my mum to come down and stay with her for the duration of his hospital stay. She has never done that before, so we really thought this was it. Turns out it wasn't and he was released the next day.

Further background info, I hate speaking on the phone. It's so awkward and uncomfortable for me. I never do it unless I can't avoid it, and if I do have to ring someone up, even family, it generally involves practising in my head what I want to say.

So it was not a small amount of stress when my grandmother rang me on Friday evening (She never rings, is this it?), and then again my dad last night (now what, is this it?).

The former turned out to be a birthday invitation and the latter a suggestion for a joint summer holiday next year (which we kind of don't want to do. Well, we would, but not there. Too wilderness-y, no larger town or city within 'day out' distance, literally nothing to do if you don't want to go fishing all day every day or even at all.)

But I cannot have these people ringing me this soon after I was asked to brace myself for a bad development! Which by the way I have been more or less braced for since Christmas as he was noticably weakened then. If it doesn't happen this year, then definitely next year, I don't think there's any way around that.